As I sit down to write this blog for the month of July, the words ‘All In’ come to my mind. As usual, I really don’t know why, but also, as usual, I know that those words mean something in someone’s life! I know they mean something in my life.
I have been examining my life lately, mostly in the spiritual realm. I have felt the Holy Spirit also looking at the things in my life, right along with me - helping me to sort out what is necessary and what needs to go - what can be useful for the Kingdom, and what isn’t. After some examination, I think to myself, ‘am I ‘All In’’? What I mean by asking myself that question is, ‘is part of me in relationship with the world and part of me trying to be in relationship with the Lord’? I’m being very transparent here because I had an experience over these past 2 weeks that I don’t really want to have again. Let me explain....
I’ve received a wonderful deliverance & healing from sexual abuse and promiscuity in my past just not too long ago thanks to the Lord Jesus Christ! Now, this healing didn’t just drop in my lap. For me it was a process - and once this healing took root down inside of me, I needed to start living it & walking it out in faith. Well, over the course of the previous 2 weeks, the enemy began to get a foothold. By that I mean, I began to take my eyes off God and look at the things around me, etc. It was so subtle, I didn’t even realize it was happening until - BOOM - I found myself slipping back to where I was before receiving my healing. It was an ugly place to be and I don’t want to go back there. God taught me some things - namely, about being ‘All In’. God showed me that I need to be ‘All In’ with Him in order to maintain this healing or I am done for. His grace and mercy are always mine, but when I take my eyes off the promise of that grace and mercy, I lose out on a lot!!! I need to keep it before me at all times - that’s what it is to walk it and live it out. I learned a lesson. I need my Savior every moment of every day. I am a needy person and I don’t have a problem admitting that. I need God’s grace & mercy flowing in and through me at all times. I thank God for His goodness and longsuffering. He has these things for us all. Are you ‘All In’? If not, do some examining of your own. Ask for the help of the Holy Spirit in sorting out what needs to go in your life and what God can use for the Kingdom. The Holy Spirit will gently help you in this process. Maybe you’re like me & you’ve allowed the enemy to gain some ground into a place where he has no right to. Go to God & ask for forgiveness & His help in taking back what is rightfully yours. Most of all, keep your eyes on Jesus. That’s the only way to be ‘All In’.